The world is/will be/has been nothing

Get 'em girls...
WHY IS IT SNOWING??? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I HATE SNOW!!!!

::Breathe in, breathe out...repeat...:: ok I'm better. Just when I want to/can skate the most...Mother Nature decides to laugh in my face. Oh well. At least I've got a Saturday session planned with Ryan for Mecca/Drexel.

Vagabond designs for line one are being completely revamped...don't worry, they will be out. Today in Camerata, Emily Kaplan and I made a promise to each other that we'll be friends in senior year when everybody else is out at college. That is gonna be a sad year...Liia gone, Kat gone, my brother gone, Stesis gone, Gina gone, everybody gone...oh well. I'll have Emily XD.

I'm gonna go murder my English essay and wait for Kendalyn to call...goodbye.

Do they begat in the same way that we would begat nowadays?

-Ben

Wednesday, March 17, 200404:33 p.m.

Weekly...
I had a very good weekend...despite the fact that I was grounded from skating...stupid parents hitting me where it hurts.

Yesterday I watched some movies with none other than the allusive Kendalyn. Her house is amazing, beautifully decorated and just overall extremely pretty. Her little brother Seth is a maniac, one c-raaaaaaaaaaaaaazy kid. After that, I took a bunch of trains home, and coincidentally Dylan and Phil were on the same train home from 30th...interesting.

Today I did homework and then hung out with Rich Mathis...haven't seen him in a while. Random skating, random skate videos, pizza, had fun. Then I came home and did more homework. Dinner, and then I decided to procrastinate my English studying in order to call a bunch of rowdy KFC boys (not the fast food, I'm talking Kansas F*cking City) and talk. Everybody, and by that I mean the entire gang of miscreants, was over at AJ's house, so the phone was passed around and I got to talk to everyone. Good time, they are very nice people. Glad that I finally got a chance to talk to Travis Toms, got him on Vagabond, and I talked to Brandon for a bit.

Isn't this fun...

-Ben

Sunday, March 14, 200409:47 p.m.

One, four, two...HIT IT!
And it is 9: 21 on a Sunday night. I had a pretty good weekend...Friday I saw "Schoolhouse Rock" at the middle school...which was terrible...Saturday I introduced Kendalyn to South Street, we walked, talked, had lunch at Johnny Rocket's...and I bought this awesome black tee from Wooden Shoe which has a pic of Bush on the front, saying "International Terrorist". Take THAT, Republicans!

Lots and lots of business work for Vagabond...team issues, distribution issues, design issues, monetary issues, blah blah blah watch me drone on and on. Enough. I'm getting ice cream.

I'm under your curse

-Ben

Sunday, March 7, 200409:21 p.m.

One, four, two...HIT IT!
Sunday, March 7, 200409:21 p.m.

And the weeks pass by in the blink of an eye...
These days do travel quickly, don't they?

WOOT WOOT WOOT WOOT first Vagabond shirts are DONE and PRINTED!!! Soooooo good...they'll be distributed/sold on Monday. Today I made a Vagabond hat...I just took an old red trucker hat from my closet, duct-taped it up and put a "Vagabond" logo on it. It sucks. A lot. Way too much.

Tonight I have to go to my little brother's play...blah...School House Rock, wow what fun...tomorrow I think I'm going rollerblading with Kendalyn...but I'm not sure, I need to talk to her. Woot. And then after that, Amy and Helen's party, should be a razz time.

Limewire is definitely being nice to me today...I found about ten amazing songs on it in less than twenty minutes. Face to Face, Piebald, Ignite, tons of stuff. Fun whoopdeewoop.

I need to go mix CDs for Helen and Amy now...I'll be off. Give me a call.

Where are we, where are we now...yeah you're abandoned, so sorry, you're just a waste of their time...

-Ben

Friday, March 5, 200406:02 p.m.

Where ya at...
Today was sooooooooooooooooooooo fun...in short, rage session all over the city. Longer, let me begin. Went skating with the infamous Ryan McCall finally. Hit up Turf, hit up Drexel rails (Ryan souled the kink 2nd try), hit up Fence, hit up Grate Ledge, back to Mecca. Pun and his gang of miscreants were at Mecca bottom ledges, so we went to say hello. We started skating, regular session, when all of a sudden Russell starts screaming into his cell phone. We look over and see that it is his way of telling us that there is a bike cop a foot away.

We grab our bags and run like hell, and get to the edge of the Penn campus. We're waiting there for the rest of the people when some random rollers who were with us tumble over to us, and tell us that Allen's friend got:
a) Maced.
b) Thrown to the ground.
c) Handcuffed.
d) Threatened.
e) Arrested.
Needless to say, we were angry. We decided not to go back for fear that we would get arrested, so we went up to Drexel and split up- Pun and his people went to Penn's Landing, and Ryan, Steve, Scottie, Doopey and myself hung around the area...skated a bunch of different places, got really tired, and I went home.

Last night was fun as well...I saw "50 First Dates" (it was actually really sad) and talked for an hour and a half over coffee with Kendalyn. She is really really really cool...ohhhh yeah.

It's too late for me to be awake...I'm going to go to bed.

Go on back to school, I am Orestes, fool.

-Ben

Saturday, February 28, 200411:29 p.m.

Bored and babysitting...
Annnnnybody home and want to call me or come over? I'm stuck babysitting on a Saturday night...my parents are out seeing Chris Rock perform in Upper Darby. Curse them. I have NO movie to watch, NOBODY to hang out with besides my computer ::sigh::....oh well.

I was pleasantly surprised last night...Adam Johnson (skater from Kansas City) had given me Brandon Mateer's (another KC skater) phone number, because I was interested in having them on Vagabond. So last night I just said fuck it and called Brandon. He was extremely respectful, really nice, patient, and also, excellently, he was interested in the company. Really cool guy, he is.

Today I went skating in the city for like an hour or so...skated grate ledge with Cole and his friend Adam for a bit, almost did a christ grind makio across the whole bloody thing, and then watched Cole try truetop soyale to topsoul. Then we moved on to this little slider bar near the huge water vats. Didn't do anything on them, really. I left after that and went to my dad's lab on Spruce...helped him label brain tissue. Then over to Trader Joe's, back home, out to dinner, and now I'm babysitting.

No one can see the crawling eye...

-Ben

Saturday, February 21, 200407:07 p.m.

Very fucking confused...
I am tres tres confused about a certain number of things with a certain number of people...I appreciate everybody not wanting me to get hurt, but trust me, I have it completely under control.

Anyway.

Yesterday my family went to Princeton for my older brother to check it out...my little brother and I scheduled to skate with some locals, and they turned out to be old Woodward buddies of ours. First, we skated this nice long ledge for warm-ups, nothing crazy. Then we moved onto the pool rail, which I am in love with; long, low, curved, slick. I was actually locking tricks on it! After that we went to the stadium and had fun on the banks there, and then finally we went and just skated some random rail. After that they left and we met back up with our family. Pizza with the Sweeneys, and then back home.

I'm gonna go skate now.

Fuck not knowing what to do, riot seeds flying about crashing into the ground and crashing into you

-Ben

Tuesday, February 17, 200404:36 p.m.

Maddddddd hyped...
Oi oi oi-

Last night was awesome...Mindmeal played a "gig" of sorts at Travis' dad's 50th birthday party for about forty drunken college professors. It was awesome...we did a five song set which went..."Bad Moon Rising", "Commando", "Come Together", "Hybrid Moments", and then later as an encore we did "Teenagers from Mars". Everybody was dancing even though I didn't even memorize the lyrics or anything...but still, it was very very fun. We got payed thirty apiece and many compliments.

We (myself, Travis, Alex, Josh, Reid, Norian, Sarah, Justin) then proceeded to go to Renato's and got food...fucked around Swarthmore College, then went back to Travis' and watched Silence of the Lambs...not as scary as I thought it would be.

Today, I've finished all of my homework, and soon I'm going to lunch and hanging out with Suzie XDXD. Later, all.

Carmelita, hold me tighter, I think I'm sinking down, and I'm all strung out on heroin on the outskirts of town...-Warren Zevon

-Ben

Sunday, February 15, 200401:37 p.m.

Attend the tale of Sweeney Todd...
I just got back from seeing Sweeney Todd...it was sooooooo bloody fucking AMAZING. It was to be damned near professional...Tom played Sweeney absolutely perfectly, one couldn't even dare to to think of somebody to play that role better...Anna Eilensfeld was untouchable as Ms. Lovett, completely untouchable...Gina was excellent as Johannah, Alex Kacala made his character(s) hilarious and flawless, Sarah Stesis was an impeccable beggar woman, Rich Beck was pure evil, Garrett was an awesome insane man, and my brother looked like Count Dracula. Overall, it gets an A+++++++++++++++++++++++. His skin was pale and his eye was odd

-Ben

Friday, February 13, 200411:23 p.m.

Dancing my way out of my constrictions...
How ya feeling?

Personally, I am feeling brilliantly amaaaaaaaaaazing. I've got George Clinton and the Parliament Funkadelic playing, I'm skating today, the weather is great, I've got a four day weekend, and last night was something out of a bloody dream. So THANK YOU WORLD!!!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

Hahahahaha, so yeah, anyway, what else is going on? I'm anticipating seeing Sweeney Todd tonight avec Liia and Kendalyn and probably tons and tons of other people.

Wow I feel so farking good...I'm gonna go dance around.

I love everything

-Ben

Friday, February 13, 200409:02 a.m.

Bagpipes playing the background
Ergh...damnit. Word to all those who ordered the Vagabond shirt with the downwards design; those shirts are not going to print. You will receive the other shirt, the chest-wide logo. This is all due to technical difficulties...

Cross of one of my skate goals...I definitely was landing 540's today in Swarthmore town...happy happy. WHOOOOOOOOOOO FOUR DAY WEEKEND!!! I can't wait, only one more torturous day of school tomorrow and then weeeee nothing! Friday I'm seeing Sweeney Todd, meeting the allusive Kendalyn, and possibly skating during the day...Saturday I'm probably having a northeast session with Ryan McCall, hit up all the nice spots...and get some clips for a possible upcoming Vagabond edit. Sunday...perhaps hanging out with Mickey, Michelle and Suzie. Monday...no clue. Maybe going to Princeton to visit with Zach and the family.

My skates are breaking all over the place...my cuff broke right down the side during my four hour session at 360...and two of axles are broken...and I think my royale plate is falling off. Fuck. Stop whining, Ben.

I'm off to study for western civ (I don't know what the bloody hell to study)...and eat blueberry pancakes my dad just made XDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXD mmmmmmmmm blueberry pancakes. Iam Iam.

Crack

-Ben

Wednesday, February 11, 200405:09 p.m.

Bagpipes playing the background
Wednesday, February 11, 200405:09 p.m.

The golden goose is on the loose...
Iam Iam...

Last night was quite fun...I had Michelle, Sarah, Lizzie, Amy, Dylan, Julian and Mickey over, and then Liia Libby and Laura showed up around 10. Before they got there, we hung out and watched parts of Rear Window and Pulp Fiction. The former got kinda boring...so I put in the latter. Wee. Then we went down and ate Krispy Kremes which my mother had so graciously bought for us and drank coffee. Then Liia and them came over, Julian left, and we all just hung out in the living room for the rest of the evening. Not a bad night.

Today I am skateparking with Alex Tancredi and Tucker Emmons at 360...thank god, I haven't been there in months. We're going for a 4 hour session...whoa, this is gonna be fun XDXDXD.

Alright, I'm gonna go now and watch a skate video and then prepare for the skating mayhem. Drop me one if you wish, I'll be back at 4:30ish...

I am fortunately able to rock ish like a Buddhist, keep my mind I'm the astute student...

-Ben

Saturday, February 7, 200409:12 a.m.

Tight black jeans with a small gray tee shirt
Sorry I haven't blogged in a while there...

Things are a happenin', there is now existence in my life. Vagabond is dropping the first line next bloody week, two designs, gray shirts, only 15 made with 11 already sold. THIS IS AWESOME! Mindmeal is happening as well, a show in two weeks (tiny little thing), practices going well, and shirts printing up quite soon. Things are nice.

Tomorrow I've got a pretty tame day at school, and afterwards I'm having a bit of a movie night, we're watching Donnie Darko for my third bloody time, hahaha, and everybody else's first. Except for Sam. I'm seeing Suzie again (finally), Mickey and Michelle are coming over, and so are about ten other people. Wee fun fun.

I love this...I'm designing Mindmeal shirts, shirts for my friend Paul's band Sway, more Vagabond things, and also, as always, more lyrics. It's nice.

This is what is awesome, my friends

-Ben

Thursday, February 5, 200409:13 p.m.

Have we had fun?
Opinions premiere was last night...it was about one hundred and fifty people all crammed into Chris Majette's Denial warehouse, seated on anything they could sit on (and by that, I do mean absolutely anything...actual seats, grindboxes, backpacks, skates, huge buckets, skate ramps, etc), watching Majette's new video Opinons. The movie itself started mad late because Cheshire didn't show up until about 7:20...but there were tons of people there. Sean and Colin Kelso, Kilgore, Malik, Martina, Chris Shaw and Jon Schmidt, Judd Larsen, Chris Bilotti, and hundreds of kids.

The video itself...amazing. Every trick was just unbelievable, every skater's section was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ill. My favorite sections would have to be...Colin Kelso, Chris Shaw and Chris Cheshire. It was amazing to see Shaw 360 soul drop rails when he is only 16 and about four inches shorter than I am. Yah...amazing. When it comes out, I am definitely going to need to pick it up.

So now, random stories about the premiere...Eddie B dyed his dreads black and pierced his fucking lip. He pierced it himself, but it looked clean enough. Drew Johnson wasn't there because, according to Anthony Carroll, he was too busy fucking 8th graders. And speaking of Anthony, he dislocated his shoulder sweatstancing Library Rail, and it was held up by a sling made of his own shirt. Pun sold his chair for ten bucks to some random idiot, I finally met one of my Vagabond riders (Ryan), and yeah. It was fun.

-Ben

Sunday, February 1, 200410:55 a.m.

VAGABOND
Oi.

Finally, a dream of mine is becoming a reality...since about 7th grade, when I first started rollerblading, I've always wanted to make a clothing company. I've designed tons of logos, came up with complete teams, made everything official...except for actually getting things printed and having teams and everything. So lately I've been designing a lot for a concept company of mine, Vagabond, and last night I talked to my friend Be Martin (who co-owns a successful biking company and has a silkscreener in his basement) about it, and he said he can do silkscreening and everything for me. So, Vagabond Clothing is becoming real.

I've got the first small line printing up very soon, IE within two weeks. All shirts will be gray with black design, in any size you want. Best part is, they're only 8 dollars apiece! If you're interested, please talk to me on AIM. The designs are...




That's the first one...




And that's the second. If you're interested, again, talk to me. Anyway.

New semester kicks ass so much...I've got good classes, pretty good teachers, two classes with Dylan, and overall it's just some fun. Homework time...I'm out. I'll probably add another entry tonight.

The necro here...

-Ben

Thursday, January 29, 200404:04 p.m.

Chocolate and rasberries...
ARGH SNOW BLEED AT THE HANDS OF MERCILESS FATE

Alright I'm done.

Today was very relaxed...really didn't do much. I wrote some, slept some, read some, ate some, and I watched Pulp Fiction. That is a bloody excellent movie, I recommend it to all. Samuel Jackson is awesome in it, and Quentin Tarantino's cameo is amazing, especially his coffee line XDXDXD

I really really really want to skate tomorrow, I neeeeeeeeed to get out to a skatepark or just skate street, even with all of this f*cking snow on the f*cking ground. F*cking hell. I will skate tomorrow.

But for now, I'm out.

-Ben

Saturday, January 24, 200411:12 p.m.

Chocolate and rasberries...
Saturday, January 24, 200411:12 p.m.

Meeb fleeb deeb skeeb
Geezuz kryst it's cold...

Quick recap: finals were only semi-bitching, but my OCD is making me worried about them. Oh well. I cannot wait for the new semester...NEW SEMESTER BOOGIE BOOGIE BOOGIE!!!

Anyway yeah ok...

Went skating in Philadelphia today with these two kids from NJ...just kicked it for about three hours at Penn and Drexel, nothing big. Except my hands were frozen solid, literally it felt like the blood had frozen in my veins. Then after they left at 3:15 because of the cold, I went to my dad's office near grate ledge, and just kicked it with him. Drank some tea, ate some cookies, read a bit of a book on neuropsychiatry, and then we went and caught a train, now I'm home.

Annnnd I'm grounded until next Friday from hanging out at night because I didn't turn in a f*cking English journal on time that didn't even bloody matter...I am angry at them. Well, mostly me mum. Oh well.

I am going to call Travis and Alex and see if they have movies I could borrow to keep myself from impending death by boredom tonight. Later on, my friends.

You don't know what you don't see and since you don't see me you don't know who I be

-Ben

Friday, January 23, 200405:59 p.m.

Meeb fleeb deeb skeeb
Friday, January 23, 200405:59 p.m.

This ish never existed whether or not I sifted it...
Hoya.

Finals tomorrow...I'm not going to gripe. I'll walk into them with a sword drawn and slay them as I should. That's all.

I'm recuperating from...the weekend's events. I'm back in. I have thoughts once more, and my writing is getting back onto a normal trick. Also, Aesop Rock has helped.

Everybody lend a thought to Ryan...his friend died today, and just reach out some sympathy to him.

Nothing superficial today. I'm trying. I'm still trying. Will be trying.

It's either knowing or not, unfortunate it may be though just do it insert the coin into the slot see what happens take what comes out take out your thought

-Ben

Tuesday, January 20, 200409:37 p.m.

I feel nothing...
Hi.

Where does one begin...where does one do anything. I don't know. Stupid questions. Stupid everything. I'm not feeling good. Lauren and I...yeah. We're broken up. I'd rather not go into detail or I'll start crying again. I'm feeling really vulnerable. It's just...not been fun.

I don't want to go into some kind of dreamy-eyed trance and start asking stupid neo-philosophical questions, because that's not going to get anything anywhere. So I'll leave it at this. I've lost something, and it's only as of late that I've been starting to get over the denial and into just accepting it. I guess I need to. I need to.

There's nothing else I can do but...I don't know. Hope. Think. Sleep. Gather myself. Write. If you want to drop a word of comfort to me or just talk, you know how to reach me.

Ashes, ashes, I have more than fallen down

-Ben

Sunday, January 18, 200411:54 p.m.

I feel nothing...
Sunday, January 18, 200411:54 p.m.

And my focus is all...crokus...
Heyyyyy everybody!

I am in relatively high spirits tonight...I got much done. My narrative for English is ten bloody pages long, and I got it done in forty-five minutes. I think that's a record for myself...oh well, I knew it would get done quickly. Ya know why? Because I wrote it about skating.

I'm getting over my cold, too...it is slowly becoming less and less. MWAHAHAHAHA!! LET THE COLD BE SLAIN!!!

Talked to Lauren for an hour today...pickle...and made plans for Saturday. Evil cats have taken over Waverly Street...and made Lauren into their slave...

I'm getting back into breakdancing...after school today I was wandering and ran into Leo, Shingo and Teddy breaking in the halls...I decided to join them, and now I'm working on handstand leg twist back reverts. I'll join them tomorrow as well. Also, Starling Bennett was there...she's actually really nice, so don't judge her by her crazy hair. We talked for a bit, but then I had to bounce on down outside.

And my focus is all...crokus, whoa, stop and choke us, poke thus and smokeless, ain't it funny how things seem to happen with no fuss, be they small as a pebble or big as an obelisk... -Incitemental

-Ben

Thursday, January 15, 200408:29 p.m.

Dark and brooding?
Poetry slam was tonight, and it definitely was not as good as the last one...no freestyle war, not as many people, but this one was fun. I rapped some (a piece by myself called "My Kingdom" and a piece by Atmosphere called "A City of Fools"), read some, played guitar with Garrett some, yeah. It was a good time.

Not a long post tonight, I need to go study.

-Ben

Tuesday, January 13, 200409:51 p.m.

Slammin'...
Weeeeeee poetry slam tomorrow...

Poetry slam is tomorrow! The last one was ridiculously fun, so I hope this one is just as good. I'm doing a piece I wrote myself called "My Kingdom"...which I really should be practicing right now...ergh...but oh well. I'll get it done, and done it'll get.

I have been writing like a beast lately...today I improved on three pieces I've started writing and created two brand new ones which are really nice...INCITEMENTAL WHAT WHAT! Weeee have fun.

And I FINALLY figured out how to use the bloody scanner...so I got some of my pictures and logo designs scanned. I'm learning Photoshop, too...funfun. Excellent. And I've been listening to Mr. Lif all day, so I'm hyped up on that. He was sooooo good at the concert...that was such a fun night.

And hopefully this Friday I'll be hanging out with Lauren and all of her friends, and possibly sleeping over to go to a huge film festival the next day...I'm not sure about the sleepover part, but I'm definitely film festivaling it.

Ok, I'm gonna go work on my piece for the slam now...talk to you all later.

I'm going to take this path though I don't know where it goes just to travel down it and see what I find along the way

-Ben

Wednesday, February 4, 200409:40 p.m.

Letting go...
Hello to all...

Today was pretty tame...woke up, called Lauren to see if she could do anything (she couldn't...blah), and then I decided to go for a skate...did a few mizous on some tiny rails and that was about it. It was an ABC day today, so Mario was over. We went to the mall, where he bought a bunch of XXL shirts (he's letting me redesign one...mwahahahaha XDXDXD), and I got this really hot shirt from Express for Men...I'll wear it tomorrow. Got home, had some crazy Italian soup my dad made which was really good (too much fennel, though), and then we watched the game and I did my homework.

Really didn't do too much...a bit of a lazy day. It was fun though. I'm gonna go see if Travis can go on a walk. Goodnight, everybody.

I stepped, I left, and I don't regret leaving...

-Ben

Tuesday, February 3, 200409:08 p.m.

What?
Not like any of this makes sense...

I'm back from New York, and it was boring as hell. The only good parts of it were that I was able to get away, if only for a short bit of time, and I finished reading Dracula. Excellent book, that is. But in the short twenty-four hours that I have taken my leave from Swarthmore, it has...not been fun.

Last night at the hotel I woke up startled at about 3:30 AM from a dream that would have been wonderful in a different time and place, and right now I am very confused about it and I'm writing to try to sort the pieces. If you want to help me talk to me.

This cold is excellent...it refreshes the world once more. I support it. Tomorrow hopefully I'm going to see Lauren...need to work that all out.

Ok, that's all I have to say. Have fun, everybody.

Wipe clean your slate of hate start over new life free from the previous stupidity and strife

-Ben

Monday, February 2, 200408:13 p.m.

On the edge of a distant place...
Mwaha...oh yes, why hello.

Weeeeeeeeeeee the weekend is here! This week went by very very quickly...twas a nice week. Nothing hellish occured. Except for having many a test...oh well.

And now I'm off to New York state for the weekend, my mom's best friend's daughter (she's basically my cousin) is getting Bat Mitzvahed tomorrow. I'll be back Sunday, and hopefully I'm hanging out with Lauren then. Funfun!

I had the best suit yesterday for Suit Thursday. It was my dark red Florsheim's, khaki dressy corduroys, a black turtleneck with my green check suit jacket by Gianfranco Ferre. Tres tres sexxxy. Tomorrow for the Bat Mitzvah I'm wearing some black dress pants by Express, a black pinstripe shirt by Alfani, some old black dress shoes from somewhere in NYC, and this crazy black tie with a stripe of red roses going down it, which is extremely mafioso. But it looks very nice, so I'm alright.

Today we had a meeting for everybody going on the Toronto band trip...the itinerary is really really good, and I'm rooming with Booby Woob, Stesis Christ and Phil. That should be a fun room...

Shit, I need to go pack a lot and get some books ready...XD I'm reading Dracula and it is sooooooooooo bloody good. I'm gonna go read it after I pack. A good afternoon to you all.

Fly die hit the sky but fall back yet again because you lived a life of sin

-Ben

Sunday, February 1, 200404:23 p.m.

On the edge of a distant place...
Mwaha, why hello.

Weeeeeeeeeeee the weekend is here! This week went by very very quickly...twas a nice week. Nothing hellish occured. Except for having many a test...oh well.

And now I'm off to New York state for the weekend, my mom's best friend's daughter (shes basically my cousin) is getting Bat Mitzvahed tomorrow. I'll be back Sunday, and hopefully I'm hanging out with Lauren then. Funfun!

I had the best suit yesterday for Suit Thursday. It was my dark red Florsheim's, khaki dressy corduroys, a black turtleneck with my green check suit jacket by Gianfranco Ferre. Tres tres sexxxy. Tomorrow for the Bat Mitzvah I'm wearing some black dress pants by Express, a black pinstripe shirt by Alfani, some old black dress shoes from somewhere in NYC, and this crazy black tie with a stripe of red roses going down it, which is extremely mafioso. But it looks very nice, so I'm alright.

Today we had a meeting for everybody going on the Toronto band trip...the itinerary is really really good, and I'm rooming with Booby Woob, Stesis Christ and Phil. That should be a fun room...

Shit, I need to go pack a lot and get some books ready...XD I'm reading Dracula and it is sooooooooooo bloody good. I'm gonna go read it after I pack. A good afternoon to you all.

Fly die hit the sky die again because you lived a life of sin

-Ben

Sunday, February 1, 200404:23 p.m.

Days pass by quicker than the blink of an eye...


Today I figured out that I don't read enough. Seriously, most of my time is spent leeched up by school and skating...while they aren't wastes of my time, there is time when I just am doing absolutely nothing. So I began writing a list of books I need to read...so far I've got Dracula (I started it and I'm six chapters deep already), Aristotle's philosophy, the Ramayana (XD thank you Lauren), Atlas Shrugged, and I need to finish Beowulf. I'm still building on that list. Any recommendations are much appreciated.

Today I talked with Will on the phone for an hour or so...we reminisced and laughed hysterically over an assignment today in English...mwahahahahaha. Oui.

I am thread the needle out...

Today I had a random photography surge...so I picked up my camera, took a roll of film my mom had and burnt it up taking pictures of horizontal lines in my house. I expect the pictures to be terrible except for a few...possibly because the film wasn't very good.

Ugle fleisch. I'm off to bed.

Crack, pow, bam, wow.

-Ben

Tuesday, January 6, 200410:09 p.m.

Rockin' It


Yo ho, yo ho, a pirates life for me...

I have officially entered a pirate phase...I am currently reading every book on piracy that I can find, renting many a pirate movie, and generally stylizing a broad view of a pirate into a form of myself. With every phase that comes my way, I try to take something out of it and put it into my character.

Babysat yet again this eve...did all of my homework and then some. And today I DIDN'T FAIL MY FRENCH TEST! As a matter of fact, I received an 89%. Weeeeeeeee go me! I put my new map up in my room and began my marking of places to go and places I've been...a life story of sorts.

Garrett and I are now making an experimental film, somewhat taking cues from Andy Warhol. We are filming people sleeping all over the school in strange positions and place (ie they aren't actually sleeping). So far it's been absolutely hilarious, some of the places we've conjured up for people to sleep in.

My god, where are my bloody skates? My skates have disappeared, which I am extremely perplexed by. When I find the person who took them, they are in for prolonged torture and a slow painful death...alright. Enough. Goodnight everybody.

And really bad eggs...drink up, me hearties, yo ho!

-Ben

Monday, January 5, 200411:25 p.m.

And the dancing must end...


And with this, winter break has ended.

It is currently Sunday, January 4th, at approximately 8:53 PM. Winter break has come and gone, and we all would have liked it to stay longer. The time of finals, midterms and immense studying is now upon us...but when that's over, WEEEEEEEEE new semester new classes new everything, just about.

Today I did verrrrrrry little. I went to Border's at 3ish and met up with Kat, Lindsay and Amee. Lindsay got this strange coffee drink with a syrup that tasted like pure overwhelming sugar of death...good lord it was like cocaine. I got a huge world map which takes up my entire wall, basically...it's going to be excellent. Mwahaha.

And since then I've done nothing, really...talked to Will for a bit, talked to Lauren, researched piracy, nothing really that interesting...wish me luck for tomorrow.

He grips his sword and marches out on his way to the battlefield known as school...

-Ben

Sunday, January 4, 200408:51 p.m.

In the lonely reaches of a house not his own, his pen meets the paper...
I am not at my own house, as it would appear, rather I am babysitting for my neighbor's three little devil spawn. Oh well, the pay is fine...I'll be here till 11, so expect a call from me and be ready to chat.

I went shopping at Daffy's today with my family...after many an hour searching for that perfect shirt or pair of pants, this is what I left with: A nice, solid black belt by DKNY, a tight, simple gray knit top by...I'm not sure whom, and a pair of khaki jeans with a crazy paint splattered look by Coast to Coast Jeans. Verrrre nice.

We then proceeded to go to Ralph's (Italian food, south Philadelphia). I got shrimp marinara, which was excellent excellent...Noah got this enormous thing of spaghetti and meatballs, and still finished it. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

So now I'm babysitting...feeling weird...at least I have my lovers Johnny Depp and Kiera Knightley to keep me company...AKA I have the "Pirates of the Caribbean" DVD with me. Night night dears.

Fight fight skate fight sleep fight fight want fight skate fight



-Ben




Saturday, January 3, 200408:29 p.m.

Creation



'Ello.

Julian and Phil just left...as of late we've been making a movie that is strangely Alice in Wonderland-esque. I'm the main character...Julian is a court jester on cocaine, Phil is a tunnel salesmen, and we have nobody else in the cast so far.

Weeeeeee I'm shopping tomorrow in the city...I need shoes and a coat, let's hope I can find both. I was going to hang out with Lauren, but she has an extraordinary amount of homework to complete, so scratch that. I can't skate, though I would like to, because my knee has just about burst open. If I fall on it one more time, I'll probably need to go to the doctor and it will not be good. I'll be able to smurf around on it by next week though...

I had an interesting chat with Liia today...in our pursuits to figure out what strange, undescribable feeling I have, we have spent much time just consulting to figure it out...I need to focus on something, basically. So right now I'm going to focus on trying to make something out of my modeling dream happen, and take it from there.

Also, I got the new Aesop Rock CD "Bazooka Tooth". It is soooo bloody good, he has tracks on it with Mr. Lif and El-P which are just amazing. Now I just need to get the Mr. Lif CD "I Phantom" and I'll be set.

I'm off to enjoy the sweet thoughts and love of my close friend sleep...I shall write again.


And with a puff of smoke, he disappears.

-Ben



Friday, January 2, 200411:47 p.m.

It has begun...
Hey everybody.

I decided to revive my Pitas page. I don't know why. I just decided it was time.

And since last I wrote, many things have changed. I'm 15. I'm in high school. Some of my interests have stayed the same while others have changed drastically. I'm going with Lauren ::smile smile smile::. I've realized many vital things which have changed my character. I'm just different, but at the same time I'm still just Ben.

Winter break has come and has almost gone, and it's been fun. I skated a lot, thought a lot, slept a lot, partied a lot, met a lot of new people, been happy a lot and been worried a lot. So now I'm just trying to make these last days count some. Things happen...

This was more of an update entry. I'll get back into normal life soon. Thanks for reading.

-Your favorite lost child, Ben.




Thursday, January 1, 200411:57 a.m.